Apparently, you’re supposed to make lemonade.

I feel like life has been throwing lemons at me for the past few weeks. And I have been doing my best to not just throw them back.

Seriously.

It’s hard to actually to sit yourself down and really weigh the pro’s and con’s of one’s actions. This shouldn’t be a hard thing, to do, infact, it’s not hard at all, it’s challenging.

I think it is challenging for me, because I’ve always been one of those people that when you take a swing at me, I swing back. Usually, due to reflexes, it’s just how I am.

I have really had to sit myself down and weigh out the situation I am currently in. It’s an unfortunate one, and I come home just feeling defeated all the time, knowing that I could have put in my two cents, and made the situation a lot worse than it already is.

But, coincidently, the situation I am currently in seriously has like got me getting a move on, like life-wise. I was watching Gilmore Girls one night before bed, and Rory was sending her resume to every paper she dreamed of working at and was going to keep pushin’ on until someone hired her.

That literally lit a fire within me, and got me pursuing my hopefully next adventure in life.

Of course, I’m writing, well, I’ve been too frustrated to write lately, I think the writer in me knows that I am truly not productive when I cannot think clearly. And when I am upset, I am most definitely not thinking clearly.

So, lets say the next few lemons that get thrown at me, so I make the lemonade, hopefully my self-control can keep me from pouring it over people’s heads.

I’m pretty sure that I can keep myself from that point, but knowing me…all it takes is push of one too many buttons.

I know God knows I’m frustrated. He and I just need to have a chat about it. He’ll get me thinking clearly.

I’ll end with this, one of the best feelings, is feeling weight being lifted off your shoulders.

WORD.